Today

Today I started a new life, I am going to be me and be proud of who I am. I will live life to the fullest and excel in what I do. I will stop felling bad for myself and start the journey to help others, God help us all, lol. Life is too short to live in sorrow and self pity.

My Rambling

I am feeling a little down today, it seems no matter what I do I can not cheer up. I feel like I am inside of blinder and it is just waiting to chop up my life. I head is spinning and my heart is crushed. I was at work the other day and it just seems like every one wants to point fingers. What happened to the days when people would admit there mistakes? I am guessing those day's are gone. i am not to happy with my body right now it looks at me and screams DIET flabby stop eating, you look like a bloated cow. I just can't wait till these days are over and I can look up and say thank God that I survived all this mess.

What Did I Do Now

Everyday when I wake up I wonder what I will do to screw up the day. It seems that no matter what I try no one is happy with it. I do one thing because someone once said that they liked it, then when I did it they got mad. This is a crazy world, and I cant seem to grasp the way it is. Maybe it is me or maybe it is the people I am around.

what to do

Some things that anger me in my relationship are that my girlfriend acts like she knows everything. She tells me that she just has this feeling that I am up to something or hiding something and I am not. I think that she is just so afraid of being hurt that she is afraid to trust me. I have also noticed that she can not stand to feel like she is in the wrong. There are times that she will ask me a question and I will answer her and she thinks I am snapping at her. I feel like no matter how I answer her or no matter what I do it is not good enough. I love her but I don’t know what to do.