Today

Today I started a new life, I am going to be me and be proud of who I am. I will live life to the fullest and excel in what I do. I will stop felling bad for myself and start the journey to help others, God help us all, lol. Life is too short to live in sorrow and self pity.

My Rambling

I am feeling a little down today, it seems no matter what I do I can not cheer up. I feel like I am inside of blinder and it is just waiting to chop up my life. I head is spinning and my heart is crushed. I was at work the other day and it just seems like every one wants to point fingers. What happened to the days when people would admit there mistakes? I am guessing those day's are gone. i am not to happy with my body right now it looks at me and screams DIET flabby stop eating, you look like a bloated cow. I just can't wait till these days are over and I can look up and say thank God that I survived all this mess.

What Did I Do Now

Everyday when I wake up I wonder what I will do to screw up the day. It seems that no matter what I try no one is happy with it. I do one thing because someone once said that they liked it, then when I did it they got mad. This is a crazy world, and I cant seem to grasp the way it is. Maybe it is me or maybe it is the people I am around.

what to do

Some things that anger me in my relationship are that my girlfriend acts like she knows everything. She tells me that she just has this feeling that I am up to something or hiding something and I am not. I think that she is just so afraid of being hurt that she is afraid to trust me. I have also noticed that she can not stand to feel like she is in the wrong. There are times that she will ask me a question and I will answer her and she thinks I am snapping at her. I feel like no matter how I answer her or no matter what I do it is not good enough. I love her but I don’t know what to do.

people

people have different views and that is a good thing. if we all thought alike we would be bored with each other.

The Ojibwa Legend Of Dream CatchersWhile many Native American tribes have embraced the legend behind the dream catcher, it was the Ojibwa tribe that originally created it. Dream catchers were created by tying strong deer sinew strands around a circular or tear-shaped willow frame.
The result looked like a spider's web. In fact, in the Ojibwa language, the dream catchers were called asabikeshiinh, the inanimate form for the word 'spider'.
Traditionally, parents would create the dream catcher for their young children. Hung above the bed, the Ojibwa believed the dream catcher would protect the children from nightmares. The dream catchers would watch over the children until they reached adulthood, as the willow and deer sinew would eventually dry out and give way.

The Ojibwa believed that only good dreams would filter through the dream catcher, sliding down the feathers to the sleeping person while the bad dreams are caught in the web, eventually disappearing.

A STORY OF THE DREAMCATCHER
by Finder
Long ago in the days of the ancestors, some of the children of the people were having strange, frightening dreams.
As the children talked to other children, the troubling dreams spread among them like a plague.
The parents of the children were concerned. The people wanted their children to be happy but they didn’t know what to do.
The people went to talk to the shaman. The shaman listened patiently as the parents told him about their distress.
The shaman told the parents that he could help. But he would need to spend some time in counsel with the spirits before he would have a solution.
The shaman would have to enter the dream world to find the answer.
Upon entering the dream world the shaman was approached by the four elements: Air, Earth, Water and Fire.
Air had already heard of the parent’s concern, and had carried the message on the wind to the other elements.
All the spirits in the dream world loved the children and wanted to help return the children to their state of peaceful sleep.
The elements and the shaman dreamed together for a long time. They finally came to understand that:
Air could carry the children’s dreams.
Earth could hold the dreams within her hoop.
Water could wash and separate dreams - the wanted from the unwanted.
Fire could use the morning sun to burn up the unwanted dreams that are caught in the web.
Now all they needed was something to capture the dreams as they were carried by the air. Try as they might, the shaman and the elements could not think of a way to catch the dreams.
Grandmother Spider had been listening!
She said, "Beautiful, loving elements, I can help you as you help me every day." Grandmother Spider continued, "I can weave a special web that only wanted dreams can escape down to the dreamer."
And so she did, and the first Dreamcatcher was made.
The shaman brought the dreamcatcher with him when he made his journey back from the dream world.
All of the families of the people made dreamcatchers. The families hung them above where the children slept, in a place that was seen by the sun.
No longer were the children troubled by unwanted dreams. Instead they had happy dreams and peaceful sleep.
And so, at last, Great Spirit looked into the dreams of the children and smiled?
- the end -

The Value Of Life

I was Driving down the road today and I realized that Life is very fragile. At any given moment life can be taken from you or a friend. As I was a child I had moved many times and met numerous people. Many of the people I have met are still alive, but unfortunately some have not made it. Two of my friends where on my mind today. They have both passed away, one chose to take his own life. I don't understand why these things happen I just know that it does. I know it is hard to accept a death and I have read in the Bible that you are supposed to mourn a birth and rejoice a death. To this day I still don't fully understand it.

What I do understand is that many thing can happen and that not one person should fell like they have no one to turn to. If every person, including me, would take a moment to talk to that girl or guy that everyone thinks is weird, they will come to find that they are human also. People hide their feelings for so long that they can not deal with them anymore and they feel like no one cares or would notice if they are gone.

I am not saying that it will definitely change all their mind on killing themselves, but if one life is priceless than what does two live equal. I would like to challenge you that when you read this blog that you will try to make a difference in one persons life. Try to help someone that feels worthless feel their life is important.